Isn't she beautiful? I am a bit biased but I do believe she is the most beautiful 9 year old on the planet. The fact that she has such a tender servant's heart for Jesus makes her beauty shine all that much more brighter.
Grammy brought her a phenomenal pendant that you open up and put a prayer inside. Madison was so excited to get it. She ooohed and aaahed over it when Grammy was here all while talking about how she had the perfect necklace for it. We were very busy visiting with Grammy among other things that day so she was unable to put her prayer for a few days.
When she did bring it to me to put her prayer inside, she took my breath away with her simple request. She wanted to put Grampa's name inside the necklace since he was in heaven. Whenever she got to missing him so much that it hurt, she could put on her necklace and feel that he was there with her. It brings her comfort to know that he is an angel in heaven watching over her. She could touch her necklace to feel him near. Simple as that. Oh to have the faith of a child.
It is not that simple for me. I don't know that he accepted Jesus as his personal Savior before he died. I regret not being bold and courageous enough to ask him. It was him and I in that room when the doctors came in to tell him that his best option was to go home to be with his family for his final days. It was the perfect opportunity to ask him. I neglected to do it out of fear of rejection. I put it off to do later but he passed away within days. Something I will reget for the rest of my own days.
This last paragraph is hard for me to write. It is not my intention to bring pain to anyone , especially my kind and loving mother in law who faithfully reads my blog (Hi Barbara!) or my precious Aunt in law who also is so kind to read as well ( Hi Aunt Diane!) . These are simply my feelings that I have been struggling to verbalize. I love you both and if this post brought you any unhappiness then I apologize profusely. Love you both like a fat kid loves a chocolate fountain!
This is something we all struggle with, thanks for being bold enough to share!! We all need a little more courage & boldness to share the Gospel. This has definitely encouraged me to speak up when I feel Him leading me. Thank you, I have a 4 yr old daughter with autism and the journey has not been easy, your blog brings encouragement thank you :)
ReplyDeleteTough one. My dad passed away when I was much younger and I have no idea whether he went to be with the Lord either:(
ReplyDeleteI can feel your pain. Rich was, as you know, a druid. A practising druid. I have no idea what happens, because if I'm right, then I never see him again. If he's right, then everything I believe is wrong. But if, as I suspect, God is greater than human belief systems, then we will be together, all of us, further in, and further up. The faith of my child gives me hope, as does yours - for a little child shall lead them.
ReplyDeleteThanks everyone for the kind words. This was an especially difficult post to write.
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